I am passionate about life, family, friends, and Jesus Christ. This blog is about survival. It's about the voyage through grief, and heartache, and joy, love and loss. It's about my experiences, and the very raw, and personal journey, and the highs and lows of living life in the best way I know how. It is honest, and real, and uncomfortable.
Lofty spires stretching their elegant necks towards the heavens, searching for heights not yet attained, windows that gaze out upon the most lovely of views, and stonework that is intricately woven together to optimize the perfect dreamy castle in my mind. This is the image I conjure up when I think of a castle . … More I have a moat ….
Little red boots… purchased over 22 years ago, and worn by three beloved children.. Disheveled laces, scuffs on the toes, and oh the many places they have stepped upon. Puddles, and snow drifts, dog poop, and mud, they have been scrubbed, and windexed, tied , and undone, and still they sit, bright red, a lot … More The crumbs of yesterday…
The glands along my jawline are clenched, and I’m salivating in anticipation of the first delectable taste. There are so many flavors that intoxicate the tongue, and a crunchy homemade dill pickle with a hint of garlic, and sea salt, freshly opened and waiting… become a celebration in my mouth that I can not deny. … More The Choice ….
There is singing… coming smoothly and quietly from the borrowed CD player… It’s comforting to listen to the words from the old remembered hymn… “Further along we’ll know all about it..further along we’ll understand why, cheer up my brother, live in the sunshine, further along we’ll understand why..” This hymn is trying to overshadow the … More Alongside him….
Tossing about on my clean white cotton sheets, atop my 4 postered bed has me feeling thankful for the scent of soft under my nose. Beds that don’t need to be blown up before sleeping on them are marvelous. My belongings were moved back in my house yesterday. Yahoo…. I know this does not sound … More Moving and shaking…
I can’t sleep…. I didn’t want to wake up today. There is a knowing in my body all of this month. It’s incredible, and miraculous, and horrible how the body remembers loss. I have scarcely had any migraine headaches at all this year, but this month of September… the Fall… I’ve had many… maybe 20… … More Give me this day….
Pink… hint of orange in the glow that was a beacon to the light that glistened off the castle. Ruins… but still emanating the thrill of first sight… first chance as the sun crested over the river. What could it be…. what was this glow that captivated and drew in the observer? For just a … More The Changing Light…
I was home alone, it was a quiet day, and I kept hearing odd sounds coming from above my head… on my tin roof. Plink.. plink… bam..kerpunk It sounded like someone was up there.. It is not December, so it can’t be Santa with his mischievous reindeer.. so what in the world? This needed further … More The end of the weekend…
When your kid is driving 40 hours back to his home base, and you keep texting him… but there is no answer. The anxiety/prayer requests explode within your inner radar, and you find yourself begging for the Almighty to let your son arrive safely to his destination. It’s the not knowing… the waiting.. the attempting … More The inner thoughts that roll around…
It arrives unexpectedly, and It’s never welcome. The darkness.. I see it in his eyes, the way it furrows his brow, and obliterates his pupils. I watch with careful deliberation , and everything within me aches to take his pain away. I cannot… It is not mine to relinquish. I have learned much, and yet … More The Hurting Mind…
